When you lie to someone you love, you're placing a small, sharp knife in your heart. This knife is no larger than a safety pin, and you don't even feel the pain. You think you're protecting yourself and them by the small, inconspicuous lie.
With time, you begin to feel a prick in your chest. You ignore it. Ignoring that feeling is the biggest mistake ever because it is a sign. A sign deigned to destroy. That small knife in your heart is growing.
Eventually, the knife grows to a point where it hurts everyday...not too much, just enough to make you start thinking about what you've done. If the lie was worth the pain. It gives you an inkling of the terror that is looming above you.
Now, at this point, the knife stops growing. It's giving you a chance to own up to whatever it is you've done and confess.
Of course, we human beings think we can conquer anything, and that is exactly why all of us will happily choose to ignore the knife yet again.
Time's up...
There's no going back. There is always silence before a storm. You will now hear the sound of nothing. You will feel happy. The person being lied to will feel happy, as though nothing can go wrong.
Now, the knife will wake up, out of its dormant phase. Be prepared my friends, because it's going to expand exponentially cutting you at every second, not allowing you to think right. It will torture you. It will make you suffer to the point where you will give up. It's going to cut away at everything good you've ever known untill you are left with nothing but the small small lie that's put you in this state. You're thoughts will churn. They will tie themselves up. You will find yourself in a world that makes no sense. simple styled garments of the wedding
Yet, because human nature is in play, you will fight. You will gather yourself a small army of friends, family, whoever it may be, and they will fight alongside you.
Human nature is an odd thing. It's quite confusing. It gives us the impression that we are doing something productive, when, in reality, we are doing nothing productive at all.
With all these people by your side, you are giving them a little bit of your pain. At least ...you think you are when in reality you are ignoring the agony within.
Eventually, you won't be able to deal with it anymore and you will reveal the truth.
Let me tell you this. You are hurting the person you vowed to never hurt. You are gifting the person you love sorrow, angst, anguish.
You will apologize over and over and over, but to no avail because the damage is done. You have taken your own knife and stabbed the other person so deeply...so deeply.
That person will move on. That person will leave you behind with a gaping hole where your heart was once whole, and it's all your fault. You did this.
You can put the blame on others as much as you want, but you will never ever be the same again, all because of this one lie you told.
Even if you do get that one person back, it will never be the same. That feeling of regret will continuously linger unless you are lucky enough to change yourself so much, that you lose your identity.
So much torment. So much woe. A heartbreak that never heals. All because of a simple, useless, hopeless lie.