On this very day 4 years ago my life changed right before my eyes and I didn't even know it!!! Pregnant with my 2nd baby girl excited I was.. I just knew I was going to be the best mommy I could be!! 20 weeks pregnant excited had just found out I was having a baby girl!!! Not know in this very day my water would break cause I just knew that Dr Wolfe had fixed everything so I wouldn't go thru the hurt in pain as I did with Cassidy!! Woke up on that Sunday morning in water I just knew I just had yea "pee'd" on myself again lol!! Little did I know nope my water broke, after showering and feeding my 3 year old pain start to come Lord what's this feeling I'm not suppose to feel like this!! Call my best friend to tell him yea I need to go to the hospital this pain I'm feeling is not right!! Get to St.Dominic with fear in my heart go straight to the maturity ward were they tell me yep Ms Sutton your water has broken she has little water to survive but with a little help just maybe we can get u to at least 24 weeks were she has a chance of survival!! Lord I prayed and I prayed lonely and confused begging and asking God to show me the mistakes I made to help me to improve!!! Admitted in the hospital for a week in a half Dr Wolfe comes in and tell me yep I will be released to go home but only if you promise that you will be strict bed rest ok I said and went home!! Only being home a week yep I went into labor delivering the most beautiful little girl besides Cassidy I every have seen!! At 7:29p.m on August 12, 2013 my little princess Addisyn Tailynn was born, but little did I know her time with me would be so short and sweet!! You left me with so many unanswered question that I knew u couldn't answer but I just wanted to hear that little voice cry just once, as I held u in my arms as you took your last breath on 08/16/2013 @ 8:37p.m I asked why???? What did I do wrong?? Why me??? Lord knows this day right here hurts worse then the day you took your last breath!! I still blame myself cause I feel like there was something I could have done!! Just maybe if I would have gone to the hospital a little earlier or maybe if I would took things a little easier!! Addisyn your big sis talks about you a lot and your mommy misses you a lot!! Rest on lil lady your almost 4 now!! Continue to watch over your sister cause she is a hand full!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH Dress Affordable wedding wearing which backtrace to 1920 # addisyntailynn # myaddipooh # 2ndborn # stillhurts # justfeelmypain